Yep, I know what you mean. Right now, actually, I know it too. I've been trying to figure out why exactly and the only thing I've come up with is that feeling good or even ok isn't normal for me. And when I do, I don't know what to do with that. That alone tries to suck me back down and I feel bad about not knowing how to be ok. Does that make any sense? Feeling down is the known for me, not comfortable by any means but it's the only word I know, I fight being down all the time, being ok just feels wierd.