I just have major transference issues with a previous T that I can't seem to get over. I talked with my this T about it some, but I came to it late in treatment and she retired before we really put it to rest. Now, I would really like to process it with my current T, but I fear she will feel that I think she is "2nd best" and that's really not the case at all. I just feel like everything else that we are doing is for naught until we deal with what I feel is an "elephant in the room". I suspect that she does have an idea about this, as she has my records from previous T and told me that she had read the entire chart. And you're right, blue. I suspect she is letting me take the lead. I just gotta suck it up and deal with it. Believe what I know is true, not the lies my disease tells me.