I'm sorry everyone but I'm bursting inside and I just need to vent I think because I've ****ed up in so many ways today.
Ever since the first time someone found out I cut I have slowly been losing all the knives in my house. The collection I had just for show, the one I'd keep under my pillow when I felt threatened, the ones that I used to cut that I could sterilize and didn't do too much permanent damage. Hell even my kitchen knives have either gone missing or are now super dull.
I think my mother and my ex conspired against me, but now I've cracked again and there's nothing in the house but a really rust exacto knife my friend in construction left by accident.
I feel like such a mess and like I let everyone down.
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"You can't hop a jet plain like you can a freight train" - Gordon Lightfoot
"It starts with light, and ends with light, and in between there is darkness" -I forget
"Got to kick at the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight" -BNL
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