When I was in aftercare from a treatment centre, I remember talking to my counsellor there and said I feel kinda strange. I feel ok, but just quite and maybe a little sad but its as if its ok also to feel this way. He replied "so your just being yourself". This wasn't said in a sarcastic tone, he really was saying how it was.

I think I'd spent so many yrs trying to chase "happiness" or some other "illusion" that I hadn't really just experienced "life". Not a high nor a low, just somewhere inbetween, just ok.