I have recently been forced to think about numerous sexual traumas due to a trigger. I was raped at 19 years old by three men. I am having difficult time not blaming myself. I am having a difficult time not seeing the images in my head. I am lonely and scared. I'm drinking tonight, I know..a bad idea. I just want to hit my head on a wall. The urge to hurt myself is intense tonight. I just need some comfort...some one to talk to.
I need help..
I want to scream and cry and break things and fall asleep all at once. I have no one to talk to about this. I'm too scared to tell anyone about this besides one friend, I'm scared I will be judged. I'm scared I will be blamed.