Hey Tigergirl
Awhh, I hate it when we are triggered or have a reaction to something that usually would not affect us. It's like when we are at our most vulnerable out sense of worth drops and our defences go up! Every little thing cuts like a knife and we want help but won't allow anyone in.
You are not alone though, we are here and your t is there...I know you might not want to let him in just now but next time could be different.
I think it shows great growth that recognised this thing that triggered you and affected you so badly. You were aware of your reactions and the chain of events afterwards- so now you can work on how to change that reaction for next time.
You might not feel so good now but this is a positive thing
I hope you can be kind to yourself and not punish yourself today.

Could you journal about your issues and maybe then you could share them with your therapist? Journaling can be very good for getting things out and in black and white. It sometimes makes things less overwhelming.

tigergirl: I'm sorry you had a bad, triggering experience in therapy and are feeling alone and frustrated. I hate those feelings too!! Please don't be hard on yourself. Whatever internal rules you have are there to protect you. Maybe your T and you can work on accepting the need for that protection and then work on going past it so that he can help you with the issues you need help with.

Can you write down or draw your feelings instead of talking about them? You're NOT alone.