I am always told by the few PPL who I turn to for support, that I should "Dont care what others think" but that is impossible. I DO CARE.... I cant help it, wish I could. I wish I could tell you why, as mean as other people are to me (i have a very small support group of friends and family, but the rest of the world uses me as a floor mat) that I care what they think, but I do.....