I was always the fat girl, once weighed 260 pounds. Always felt like a loser, clumsy, ugly and would dream at night that I would wake up and be 140 pounds.

Long story short, I am 140 pounds now and I have an ED and am going through hell. This isn't what l thought it was going to be like. Sure I can fit into a size 12 instead of a size 24, but who cares, only me and all I want to do is get thinner. It's never enough with me, and quite frankly, I never thought I'd be referred to an Eating Disorder program due to this problem.

It was different when I was fat, I used to view things differently, used to look or read about anorexia and think, "why can't they just eat". Hmmmm, kinda coming true for me these days and I understand now that an ED is a mental illness.