Lately I have been feeling like such a loser, and I don't know how to cope with these negative feelings.

I look at where I am in life – finished vocational training, currently unemployed looking for work, university dropout, etc. – I can't help but feel this strong sense of disappointment. I don't feel like I have accomplished anything worthwhile, and it kind of makes me think, “What use am I?”

What I would love to be able to do is wake up in the morning and feel good about what I have accomplished in life. Unfortunately, all I see are a long list of disappointments, and what I have accomplished doesn't seem like much to me, although my therapist would disagree on that. She thinks it is incredible that I completed the schooling to obtain my commercial driver's license, but that still seems small, and it hurts that I failed twice to obtain it. (Of the entire school, two students failed, including me, and I failed twice.) I will never forget that horrible feeling.

I will admit I am likely feeling so low about myself because I compare myself to my idol-enemy (i.e., someone I admire because of what they've done but hate because I wish I was them) has been in the news a lot.

The most celebrated athletic even this year is taking place right now. All the major news companies and newspapers – The Globe and Mail, the New York Times, Reuters, BBC, NDTV, Economic Times, and more – are reporting on it.

The World Chess Championships are on in Chennai, India, with the “Norwegian sensation” Magnus Carlsen (22), the world's No. 1 ranked chess player, taking on Viswanathan Anand (43) of India, the current and 6-time World Chess Champion. The total cash prize for the winner is $2.24 million.

Magnus Carlsen is my idol-enemy; he's the same age has me and has accomplished a thousand times more than what I could ever dream of. He's the highest ranked chess player in history, makes more than a million dollars a year, and looks like a model too.

Couldn't I be successful and accomplished like that?

I don't know. I feel like if I am always to be average (or below average) then what use am I? Today I had an interview at a moving company for a job there, and that's not necessarily bad, but it doesn't make me feel successful. Everything I've done seems so minor and insignificant.