***PRETTY TRIGGERING***

So, I have only been self harming for a year now, but it is getting very bad. I don't cut very deep at all, but I cut multiple times a day, by the hundreds. It has gotten to the point where I take my blade to school, and I cut in the bathroom stall, or I have even cut in the middle of class, and nobody notices. It is a huge problem. Nobody has ever found out that I cut myself. I barely need to hide it, because I pretend to be happy and cheerful. Everybody thinks I am really cheery and eternally optimistic, even if the catch a glimpse of my wrist, I can make up something that happened, and they believe it right away.

It is getting to be a real problem. It used to help me forget my problems for a bit, and I only cut once a day, or every two days. But now, I can't function without cutting. Now, if I hadn't cut for about two or three hours, my anxiety levels get really high, and I can't breathe. I need to cut. I need help. I have tried so many alternatives to self harm. Nothing helps.