Just today I was diagnosed bipolar. It just doesn't feel right though, so I'd like some input from this community, as my first post, if y'all don't mind.

I've had recurring bouts of intense, high motivation obsessions, and bouts of low/depressed moods. Like, my mind would click and instantly I'm infatuated with golf (the most recent obsession). All movies I watch are now about golf. Every thing I think is about golf. When a golf commercial, or medication commercial comes on and they're golfing I think, "Aha, the universe is telling me this is the path I'm supposed to be on!" Doesn't matter what topic I'm currently obsessed with, these coincidences and thoughts follow me. If I'm talking with somebody, I either want to sway the conversation towards golf, or I don't want to talk much about anything else. My thoughts race with how I can better my swing and it's all I think about. Spending ALL hours of day researching and perfecting my swing. Going to bed late thinking about it, and waking up early thinking about it. "If my parents would have actually given me golf lessons instead of just suggesting it, I'd be a pro by now! I've gotten so good in so short of a time!" THEN....click. I want nothing to do with golf. It just doesn't interest me anymore. I bought all the best known books, subscribed to some magazines, my inbox is filled with golf newsletters and tips. Now I have to unsubscribe to them all. All of the golf purchases I made that are floating around my room, don't belong there anymore. I'm down, there's just no more energy to keep going with this. "Why did I just wast two months with something so pointless again?"

This vicious cycle has cursed my life for around 7 years now. I've wasted so much time and money on passions that were perfect for me. I recognize it when it happens now, but always, ALWAYS, this is the time it's gonna stick. It's interfered with college, causing me to focus more on my temporary obsession than my homework.

So what I'm trying to say is, my problem seems to have some commonalities with bipolar, but it doesn't, to me, seem to fit the bill just right. I'll talk about this more with my psych when I see him. I'd just like to know if some of you have obsessive manic episodes that may or may not drain your bank account. It seems so odd of a symptom and I've never met anyone the same or who thought is wasn't weird.