I just got back from my T appt. I don't seem to make any progress. We go over & over the same stuff (low self-esteem, some anger & depression & some suicide ideation). So what am I supposed to be doing in therapy?

She says my marriage has a lot of problems cuz we don't talk about things that are upsetting to me, but why would I want to talk about upsetting things when the last time we did I ODed? I've withdrawn quite a bit from my husband. I don't want to be hurt again. We don't sleep together, we don't even eat together. But that's my doing cuz I am so devastated about his negative remark about my weight gain that I feel like I'm sinning when I eat & I don't want him to witness it.

Where do I get some guidance about what I should be accomplishing in therapy? The "I'm a good, worthwhile person" stuff just isn't helping me to feel it inside.

I'm wondering if I can't do anything right. I'm flunking therapy!--Suzy