I saw this therapist for a couple years when I was first dxed as bp 1, but when I go the right meds I just didn't need it anymore. I felt so much better. So I'm back with her after a couple years break. My pdoc recommended I get back into therapy since the OD.

My husband would go to therapy with or without me, but I would feel too vulnerable. I don't want to hear anymore "truth" from him. It's too devastating.

I do ask my T, "What am I supposed to be talking about?" I'm just not getting over the conversation when my husband said he no longer found me sexually attractive so we just kinda go over my not getting over it. I do feel better away from my husband--better about myself. I don't feel like other people are judging me as harshly.

But he has been my "father figure" since we got together when I was 15 & he was 16. We went to a boarding school together--my mother had committed suicide & my father pretty much abandoned us so I've always been very dependent on his approval. When I attempted suicide at the boarding school, they took me to the hospital & called him, not my father cuz the dorm parents knew he was more involved in my life than my father. When my father found out he just got mad. I reminded him too much of my mother (who also had bp 1), I guess. He didn't want to deal with another crazy female.

Thanks for your helpful comments.--Suzy