It sounds really hard right now. I think you could still go into architecture, maybe volunteer/apprentice with someone? Although it may be more of alone work. Can you go to school for it? I'm 40 & still hope to someday finish my college degree. It's too late in life for me to go into the field I really wanted, but I would like a degree in something, it's. personal goal. You have the drive to want to work, it's not always possible when we're ill, but I'm proud of you and hope & pray you can find a good job & that things will get better.