My cat came back Thanks . So relieved about that but the thoughts did not stop moving around and now shifting to paranoia, just been given a leaflet "Can the dead really live again" I live in nowhere land they came out to nowhere to give me this leaflet. And I have choir tonight, the links are undeniable , the shame... I am feeling ( not working hard enough) I am working on the choir logo. I haven't done enough. Maybe they are pissed off that there is a secular angle to the design . Maybe I shouldn't have done that? Maybe i should stick to mediocre watercolours rather than symbolism which relies heavily on the powerful geometry, I see there is a mountain inside my little scribble.
I wish I wasn't here on my own. I didn't want my Husband to leave this morning, I am having a hard time with my thoughts. I don't feel safe and I don't know the best way to navigate this.i am aware that I am in a really volatile situation