RissaAli that wAs a good reply and spoke to me as well. Just expound on that... I am 39 and I have never talked about my history of child abuse and things to happen further into my life. I was dealing with a lot of stress at work and for some reason something to get me and now I find myself on short-term disability Trying to put myself back together. I Share this because I think it is important that when you are ready that you do seek out help even if it is later on in life. It's especially good to do it before something triggers you in such a negative way as it did with me. Now I am in therapy, but having to do things at a much faster pace then I would like. What's strange is my brain wants to tell her about the abuse but my inner self says hell no. Every time we go to talk about the abuse and abuses that happened while in military and first husband I freeZe and disassociate. I try really hard and it's frustrating to my therapist cuz she says she can't help until I'm stabilized and can stay in the room. But when you've spent 40 years holding it in like a finger in the dam it's hard to take that finger out.