Thanks so much, Healing, for your advice. As a matter of fact, right now I'm having a hard time because of my "relationship" with the guy - so far, it's been more of a "friends with benefits" kind of thing, which has really affected my self-esteem... I'm a person who really keeps to themselves, and internalizes things, so even posting this here at PC was really difficult for me. In some ways, I can't believe that I was able to let this guy become so close to me, and it feels really incredible. However, we just had an argument yesterday, about how he doesn't want a serious relationship, and (because of a 4-year age difference) said that I'm very immature because of my age. My heart is telling me that he's also nervous about getting too close to me, however some of the things that he said really hurt me. A few other things he brought up was him still being in love with his ex-girlfriend and talking everyday to her, and why he and I wouldn't work in a serious relationship together. I haven't told him the experiences that I've been through, except that before I considered myself a virgin, although my body was not. He knows that I've never had any close friends who know everything about me, except for my big brother who has taken care of me in my darkest times, but his response was "You not letting people close to you is a decision, and immature. It was nothing to deal with your experiences, but of your age and immaturity." Before, I liked this guy more than I have ever liked anyone else... but it seems like after sex, he's changing more and more into someone that I don't know. I'm so scared.