I am scared of myself - it's like I don't trust myself. I am feeling very upbeat today for some strange reason - maybe it's the St. John's Wort that I have started taking - maybe I'm bipolar, rather than depressed as my diagnosis has indicated - maybe the depression has lifted for some strange reason - I Don't know.

But, I'm scared it will come back - so scared that I had to really convince myself to make plans on Sun., because it's faraway and if I get depressed I won't be up to it and will cancel. I don't trust I can stay this way - in the past week I have had EXTREME lows and then moments in which everything was fine or even better than fine- I just don't understand what's going on... Could it actually be that the depression is gone? or am I bipolar and it is just hiding around the corner? Do any of you experience this? do any of you feel that you can't trust not losing it?