I think simple label of personality disorder could be a misnomer. I think you would do better with a personality assessment. You could be under a lot of stress, making you behave in negative ways, whereas you would be different otherwise.
I don't like how a lot of personality disorder framework is reliant on giving up a lot of your autonomy and therefore not much you yourself can work with.
If you can't find the help, you're kind of screwed with damning yourself in the mean time.

If you mean weak as in giving in, then I agree, it is relaxing.
You also need fair amount of positivity to be at working capacity so treat yourself well.