im felling so low right now and i know why but cant resolve the issue, i lost both my boys last year and now i want to die not figure of speach but literaly but i cant give away my life and wouldnt dream of asking or paying anyone to do it for me, i gave up a long time ago but how can i stop feeling the way i do and who do i turn to to help me with out having to pay through the nose? i have no money or family i just want to go. but cant i need some one where do i go?