I once spent $300 on a kit designed to get me started in direct marketing. Not that I could afford it at that time, but "To make money, you have to spend money". I got the kit, registered my business name and got a license, watched all the videos, read over the materials and then realized that I didn't have a product to sell. If such behavior doesn't scream "bipolar", I don't know what does.

I know it's hard to accept such a label. I fought it for over a year before a wicked mixed episode forced me to recognize the veracity of my diagnosis. Sometimes it still feels like I'm just rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic, but having accepted the fact that I have bipolar disorder frees me to concern myself with outcomes, rather than focusing on the diagnosis itself. I hope that makes sense.