Hi problems,
I read your post yesterday (was feeling low myself so didn't reply) and again today. I'm new here also, so bear with me.
Your post brings back memories of high school. It was full of ups and downs for me and probably many others. The feelings you described seem like the things I used to say in my diary... being a loner, book "nerd", hard home life. I used to feel so alone. Now I look back and see that there were others like me. I guess being "not normal" is kind of normal
I agree with bloopers about the meds. I find that I think clearer and can cope better when I'm on mine.
Anyway, I hope you have a better day and get to feelin funny and entertaining again. Take care of them sugars girl, when mine are out of whack I feel pretty bad too. Hang in there.