I've been putting this off for too long now. ***** footing around in T with garbage that really doesn't mean anything. Got get back down in the cellar and start cleaning this crap out again before it just all overtakes me. The trouble is I just don't know if I have the strength to do it. I have issues that need to be dealt with first and I just don't know if I can tell my current T. I am so afraid that I will hurt her feelings. I know that I should not be concerned about how she feels, therapy is for me, not her. But I can't help it. I just have to figure a way around it. 48 hours now til my next session. Maybe I can write it. I'm not sure.