I wanted to share a bit about myself before I begin posting in more threads.

I'm 24 years old and have had anxiety and intrusive/irrational thoughts since I was a little boy. Examples of those intrusive thoughts would be my fear of losing those close to me or being betrayed by them. As a result, I tend to keep only a few close friends and have ended up quite bitter and mistrusting of others. Also, I have ADHD which was a huge source of my depression in school because I was surrounded by incredibly hard working and competitive people and my grades were generally lower than theirs.

I'm currently feeling so low because I am unemployed. I graduated from Business school about 2 years ago and ever since then I've only been able to find one part time job that I worked at for 2 months. I feel really worthless and am more afraid than ever of pursuing happy relationships with new people because I fear they would look down on me or reject me. I've been rejected by so many people from jobs searches or relationships that I feel like I don't even belong in society.

Anyway, thanks for reading all of that. I really hope to find a job soon and get out of this depressive bout, but any kind or empathetic words would be deeply appreciated.