Oh wow, KeepHoldingOn, that is INCREDIBLE! You're making me tear up over here... I know how difficult it is, and even after you stop, the urges never go away. After time passes, sometimes they get smaller and smaller, but they never go away. You are such an inspiration for me, seeing where you are now, and how strong you've become. You're so incredible, thanks for shining your success and light here at PC - I know it'll rub off on me and everyone else too