What is EMDR? I would like to make my therapy more purposeful. I'm basically talking about the same incident & crying.

When my husband & I travel & we have to stay in the same room of the hotel, I sleep on the closet floor. I'm often crying. My pdoc has increased my Lamictal to 300 mg a day from 200 to help with the depression (that's been several weeks ago--doesn't seem to help with the breakthrough depression). But I don't feel depressed all the time. It's not like a normal depression that invades your life & affects everything.

I'm only depressed when I'm around him, think about him, or think about myself & all my weaknesses, faults, lack of productivity, lack of purpose in this life, etc. Thank you for the responses. I really need help in this regard so any advice is helpful.

As far as sabatoging or not doing what my therapist suggested, she's not really suggested anything specific for me to do except take a class so I would be around other people more. I do that periodically through Adult Ed. & do see one that interests me now. It seems everyone already has enough friends so no overtures are made to continue any relationships outside of class, but at least I'm around humans & I don't feel so judged.--Suzy