Last night/early this morning, I had really bad urges. I had something trigger me, and it was really strong - I felt useless, stupid, naïve, immature, and so terrible about myself, and I thought about how wonderful it would feel to just give in, and let my worries and insecurities bleed out... but then I remembered some of the things that I've read on the SI forum, of where people were before, and how they've overcome it. Hearing people's stories, and seeing how strong they were, and how much they believed in me... and I knew I couldn't disappoint myself again. It was really difficult, and I cried, and cried, and cried myself to sleep... But when I woke up this morning, I felt better. I was still sad, but my urges weren't there anymore, and I felt really happy that I didn't give in.