Yes I am/was definitely addicted to the cutting part.. I think that's why the urges still come. I try and not pathologize them when they are here, and try to just recognize that they are because of past patterns... but they still freak me out! I'm terrified of falling down that slippery slope that was SI and depression 24/7 .... I've been good for nearly 8 months and am just trying to hang on to that!

the shot, in this case, was just something to put in my body to make those feelings stop. I will defffffinitely be careful that that doesn't become another pattern... I just didn't know what else to do!