Hi...

Not even sure if this is where I should be posting. And I don't know if I should even be posting. I'm just feeling so incredibly low. I have to post though. It's getting close to the holidays and now more than ever its getting harder to deal with not having a girlfriend. I feel so effing pathetic. I just really can't be alone like this for much longer. I just don't know what I'll do. And when I walk downtown in the evenings, I can't help but see all the happy couples holding hands, being affectionate, and having someone to love and to be in love with. And then, there's me...haha..effing alone..no one to share anything with. No one to come home to. I go home and I seriously don't know if I even have enough fluids in me to cry as much as I need to cry from this loneliness. It seriously hurts inside me. But, I promise there's a point to posting..

Here's my real question...how do you cope with this low state, at least enough to muster up enough energy and hope to "put yourself out there"? And it just sucks because I feel like I basically have to compete with these happy, confident guys who aren't in this state. But the thing is, I know that I'd be much happier and more stable once I actually met someone. But it's the putting myself out there that's hard. It's hard for me to sell myself and my qualities when I'm feeling pathetic like this :/ Any words of wisdom on this?

I'm already predisposed to having these low hopeless moments where I seriously can't remember what it feels like to be anything else. And now with the holidays and all the happy couples out there. I'm just feeling really hopeless. I'm sorry...

Thanks for any helpful thoughts or advice.