Unfortunately one of the things I learned was to trust other people when it came to my illness because I was so unaware myself...but also when they first gave me meds the delusions were like so unclear....I remember telling my pdoc that I had a headache but I could feel it in my actual brain and I was picturing the brain with like electrical currents going through it. The thing is I thought it was actually happening. There were other things too but basically I still couldn't tell what was real or not but my voices were less, but I was somehow more aware of how odd I felt and people's perceptions of me so I really felt far more confused even though I was getting better at the time.

At the same time peoples perceptions aren't entirely accurate...my parents once visited when I was floridly psychotic and they had no idea because I wasn't telling them anything weird. The only odd thing was I told them I loved them which I never do so they later claimed that something was off.