Thread: Emotions
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Old Nov 15, 2013, 03:28 AM
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Is it a normal response to be scared of allowing my emotions about my childhood surface? I have never let myself get upset over it and at times find it hard to even imagine getting upset. I think my biggest fear is that if I get upset then it is as if it affected me and I am in a way acknowledging the fact that it happened. My understanding is that if I was to accept it than I am telling my abusers that they won or succeeded at messing my life up.

I am also afraid of how I will react too, I have held onto 18 years of emotions regarding this and the thought of that all coming out at once freaks me out.

I was planning on telling my T this at my next session, but I am afraid, I don't know if I am ready to address it, she is really nice and is extremely supportive but I am afraid that she is going to ask me something that will trigger a reaction and everything that I have worked hard to keep hidden will come bursting out.
Sounds stupid when the reason you go to therapy is to release the things that we have been hiding

Do you think I should just be honest with my T and tell her everything or wait until I feel ready?
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