Thanks Doc John. This is a topic that I am ashamed to talk to anybody...even my T. When he brings it up I gloss over it and manipulate the conversation away from it. It is funny because in most things he is tenacious and will not allow me to do that but with this issue he lets it slide. Perhaps he is as uncomfortable with it as I am or perhaps he can sense that talking about it with him will send me over the edge. As with everything I have worked on in therapy I have come here with it first. So perhaps it is time.
Take care and thanks again,
Carrie

<font color=blue>The important thing is this: to be able at any momeent to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.--Charles Du Bos