Suzy,

One thing that you could do is try to think of (make a list) how life would be different for you if therapy and if you were better. From there, I am sure that your T could help you with making a plan to work towards the things that are important to you.

I have felt like I was failing therapy too. I've been working with my current T for about 2 1/2 years now, and several others previously. She almost terminated me a few months ago because I apparently couldn't do therapy and was not getting any better. I am starting to do better now though, and I think that this time it's real improvement that will last. So if I can do it, you can too. You have to figure out what you want though, because if you don't know where you are going, chances are you will never get there.

One of my goals is to learn how to live without being depressed. I haven't known how because I had been depressed for my whole life. What would life be like for you if you were happy and well?

Rap