Now was it not you who said that you thought it was over for sure after the last thing you did to him??? Funny how we are so good at getting things back when we want isn't it? We are all stuck in the same or close enough to the same stages of our issues (Speaking on the NPD only). We do recognize that we have things to work on and until we do just that it continues to be the game of i'm better because I know my issue and that makes me right!!! Well is that not far from any truth huh.... What is the real meaning of our thoughts that makes us feel and operate? We have our ups and downs and unfortunately many of our problems are what gives us are so called ups most of the time. Tell me how you felt when you "knew" it was over with him and when you were able to bring him back the accomplishment was what? Do we really feel bad for doing the things we do or is it the fact that we know we can do these things and the "game" of righting our wrongs is what the end goal is. Not in the sense to be better people but in fact to hurt the ones close to us just to see what it takes at any given time to pull them back to us. I know that we specialize in becoming whats needed for all end games. What we want is set in our minds in a way that is far from how normal people go about reaching their goals. I try to imagine what is right as I do still very quickly go on the defense or make excuses. I now think afterwords and usually realize I handled the issue not in an appropriate way. Why do I still enjoy being a d£$k to people who I am close to? People who would always help me or should I say that I would mostly manipulate into doing so. I do not think that the steps are large enough for reaching a better way. At the same time baby steps are even to large it seems. On a positive note we understand that we do not share minds in a normal fashion. Our thoughts are very complicated when they really do not have to be. Part of why and who we are. Some of us are laid back and others are high strung but in the end we all have the same tactics whether its upfront in your face or methodically planning behind the scene with a smile on our face. Until we get in the mode of pulling our demons out and facing what we hide we will never do better for others. We have made so many stories in the face of others to be who we want to be seen as that it becomes very hard for truths to be known anymore. One day some of us will get there however difficult, long and impossible it may seem. We do share the mindset now adays of seeing our ways so that in itself is something more than when we thought we were like everyone else. As far as the title you have created here don't stress to much as we will continue to slip and when we don't for a while we will once again. Our moments come and go whether good or bad but at least we keep moving ahead and that's all that matters. Not trying to preach just giving my own insight in the ways I see things. Not that it means much cause I could easily go back to my N ways at any moment. Good luck with you and don't worry for anyone else!!!