Hey Orbit. I'm really sorry that you're experiencing this. Life isn't fair, and it breaks my heart that you're experiencing this pain and sadness. I have a history with SI, and although I cut, that wasn't the only thing I did. I also burned, ripped off my nails, bruised myself, anything to cause that physical pain... so I know how you feel. I know that I'm just "meeting" you now, but I care. I care when you hurt, I care when you're angry, I care when you're lonely, I care about you. If anything happens to you, I promise I'll remember you. You can always pm me if you need to talk about anything, have someone listen to you, or just chat about the gray skies and the cold air. Just try to hang in there, okay? Because things do get better, I promise. And I care.