i don't know what is wrong with me... first thought depression... then bipolar... then borderline personality. i think the borderline personality "fits"... not that it matters. i am lost. done. i stopped all treatment 4-6 weeks ago (i don't even know how long it has been). really not any worse. until now. i am spiraling. fast. i feel myself getting back to that really bad dark place and it scares me. but i don't know what to do. i don't have time for doctor's appointments or therapy... i work a very demanding full time job outside of my "mom" and "wife" jobs... i don't work enough hours as it is... so taking off more for appointments is out of the question. i sent my husband a text this morning... when i was totally losing it... "i am falling apart... i can't live like this"... and his response was "What now"... am i wrong to be crushed by such an answer? my daughter (6) wonders why i am always crying... it's not fair... i know i am messing her up... i am stuck with no options... nobody can help me... i just want somebody to care... and maybe even understand...