I've been married for 7 years but I feel alone and abandoned emotionally.

We have a nice house and a beautiful child. From the outward appearance things look pretty darn good.

My husband will never hit me. He's been home every night consistently. He even says he loves me. So why should I even consider leaving.

Here are a few examples:

I wanted to go back to school after having a baby. I must of talked to him for 2 hours and asked him if he thought it would be a good idea. He nodded his head yes. The following week I enrolled in school and put our son in daycare. I was going to pay for school and I asked him to pay for daycare. when I asked for the check for daycare he ask what was going on. He did not remember a thing from our the 2 hour conversation. He was not paying attention at all.

When I am sick with the flu and not up to making dinner, he makes dinner for himself only.

He walks away in the middle of something I'm saying to him.

While 8 months pregnant he twisted his head out the car window to look at a pretty girl.

He thought my pregnancy was gross and refused to have sex even though my hormones were raging for it.

He refused to have a second baby.

I told him before we were married I wanted someone to hike and go to church with. He nodded his head but did neither after getting married.

I go to church by myself and joined a hiking group. You think, that's great but I'm sad because the only thing we do together is go to a movie or watch TV in silence.

He yells at random objects like the TV, car, random things that do not meet his expectations.

He's done nice stuff too which is why this is no confusing to me.

I've told him I am not happy. I've brought up marriage counseling a few different times but he clearly stated he will not go and there is nothing wrong which our marriage. He says he loves me.

I have dreams that I'm crying and reaching out to someone saying "I'm so unhappy".

I feel stuck. If I leave I will end up in a small apartment with not much money. I signed a prenuptial agreement. He put the large down payment on our house. He bought the car with cash. I used my savings to go back to school. I work part time and like my job but I'm nothing more than a medical assistant. With him I have financial security and a man that will not leave no matter how unhappy he is or I am.

It feels like someone lifting me up then slamming me down over and over again.

On the ups everything is ok and why would I think about leaving. On the downs I can spend hours looking at apartment I might want to move into that I can afford in our neighborhood so our son will not have to change schools.