I've been really bad lately, but finally the mental health service have taken note and offered to help me out. The plan is a course of meds, regular talks with a councilor and membership with a community day service that helps people with problems like mine.

I see the latter being the most important of the three, as a big part of my problem is the way I drive myself insane through isolation. The chance to mingle with people is a better treatment for me than any sort of meds or therapy.

But there's a problem. The group in my town also happens to be where my ex girlfriend goes and has been going for the last five years. Her best friend goes there. The guy she cheated on me with also goes there. So I can't go. It's enemy territory.

So after years of trying to get help for myself, I finally get it and I can't make use of it.