I am sooooo sorry you are struggling, I understand and I have been there. I also cannot do the therapy I need. I do make the decision to take care of myself. You have to find what works for you.

I love DBT. When my group ended I bought the DBT Skills Workbook. So much great stuff to learn. You can post threads on this forum as you go along and we can work through some of the things in it together (kind of like group). I may start doing that, get some positivity and constructive work done around here.

Another thing you can do is set aside 10-60 min or so of you time. Do something that is self soothing, takes your mind off of the bad things in your life, just relax. I like to get outdoors and run with my dog, no music. I love the solitude, it's just me and the road. You need to find your little space.

My husband definitely has struggled with me and I used to get the same type of responses. I don't know what your family life is like, but when we both quit drinking and changed occupations in addition to me focusing on my coping skills, things changed. I was using skills to help myself. He became more interested in my illness due to more positivity. He has become understanding and is actually helping me work through things.

It can be done. I know you can do it as well.

Just a FEW of my suggestions. Trust me, if you read the book you will see that I am plagerizing. These are things I put in my tool box, you should build one for yourself and your family.