I was diagnosed with Major Depression back in April and looking back, I think I've suffered from a certain degree of it my entire life. At first I was put on 20mgs. daily of Prozac which had little or no effect, I was then boosted up to 40mgs. with 900mgs. of Gabapentin added on as a mood stabilizer. Initially, I felt a big difference, but it seemed to level off pretty quickly.

Recently, in order to make some money I've started a clinical research study for a depression medication infused intravenously. One of the requirements in order to participate involves stopping all current medications and I've been off everything with the exception of the experimental drug for a month now and I still have frequent peaks and valleys in my moods. Also, I've developed some insomnia.

As I've stated in one of my other posts, there's a lot of guesswork involved in this illness of ours. What is effective for some may be totally ineffective for others. I tried therapy and don't have much faith in it. I came away from my most recent clinical visit thinking, "What the hell is wrong with me?" in that I'm willing to try some chemical cocktail pumped into my veins in order to make me feel that this life of mine is worth living, or at the very least a little more tolerable. Hope you have a nice, happy weekend !