I guess I know what you feel, I guess most of us have been feeling the same way. I can't be anything else besides than tired, I can't do anything right, the others seem better than me in every task and I have been in the dark for so long that I sincerely dought that better days will come. But someone said to me in the other day that there are many kinds of problems, easier and harder, but is inside our head that they realy exist. Don't know if it is heapfull but it gives me the hope of being happy once my head becomes fine. You are worth, you just haven't the opportunity to realize that. I'm very sorry about your mother, it most be very hard.