Well here goes. It isn't healthy to remain friends with an ex, especially if you still love them. I thought I was over D. I mean I know its dead end with him. I know I could never make love to him, I know I can never be good enough for him. It was just something about "us". We just didn't work as a couple. But alas, I still love him, and we still talk every night, as friends.

Now I know I am going to get the same responses to this thread. Cut off communication with him. I know I have to. I just can't.

Now there is a new guy in my life. Very new. I used to be excited to hear from him, now I am feeling anxious, scared and worried. We haven't even met yet!! Its just been a couple of days of texting and phone calls. But I am literally panicking! I don't know. My skin is just crawling. He did send me another picture tonight, and he looks different from the one on his profile. I am just gonna go ahead and say it. He looked fatter and uglier, and I wasn't the least bit attracted to him. Could one picture scare me off so much? I have loved fat and ugly before, I mean I'm fat and ugly too.

I don't know. I'm a mess of confusion right now. I am thinking about my ex and how much I love him, yet I know its so dead end with him. And this new guy just turned me off so much. I want to be happy. I want a relationship. I love my ex-boyfriend. UGH!! Sometimes I wish I never met D, then I wouldn't be going through this with this new guy. We broke up in February, and I have just been holding on because I don't want to be lonely. There is no hope for a reconciliation, he doesn't want me.

Help! Just help!