That's pretty rough. Do you have long to wait for your next session? I know how hard it is to reach out when you really need help only to be left feeling completely unheard. It often used to leave me feeling like asking for help made a bad situation worse (because a lack of response tended to send me spiralling rapidly downhill). It sounds like you've managed pretty well and have done the right things by calling again. And keep posting here if it helps. I am sorry you've been struggling.