Jacq, sometimes we really aren't ready to work on things "right at the moment" and I think that can be OK. You have tried and it sounds like you are done for now. I just worked on something in therapy that popped up after 20 years. Now was the time. It's not like your T is saying Jacq, I think you should work some more on this. Her response sounded ambivalent. Maybe she thinks you are done too (but they hate to tell you that--they like you to make the decision).

I sympathize with what you wrote about missing your old T. (((hugs)))

Good luck.
sunny