I really need to talk to someone. I feel so alone, so I came here because I know that there are others who are struggling like me. A couple of days ago I just about ended my life. I couldn't go on anymore. I took 4 xanax, 1 sleeping pill on top of my 1 prozac. Each time I am taking more and more pills. I am scared that I will take too many the next time. My fiance tried to wake me up 4 hours after I took the pills, by shaking me, putting water in my face and then he finally put me in the shower and turned cold water on me. I barely remember any of this. I am not sure how I got back in bed, but I slept 8 more hours before waking up. I was supposed to go to work that night, but didn't make it. Now I have no job. I am a registered Nurse who is supposed to help others in need, but instead I need help. I woke up this morning trying to decide if it was worth getting up. I hate this dark cloud around me. It is consuming me daily. I am going to seek counseling, it is my last resort. Thanks for listening to me.