I am having a hard time keeping the self hatred at bay today, and I too can only think of harming myself. Today I'm not exactly disgusted at myself, just fed up of being such an idiot. Especially when it comes to spending money I don't have. Actually, I guess I am disgusted.

But yes, I can definitely relate.

Is there anything you can do to distract yourself from thoughts of harming yourself? I just woke up from a nap I took to try to cope with it.