Maybe you'll find your independence living with him? Meaning,,sounds like you are dependent on him, emotionally, we do depend on our SO's, to be an emotional support,,that's normal and healthy.
While living together, you can plan time away, shopping, hobbies, new friends, outside the home, and still come back home, to him. That's, independence, in an 'interdependent' relationship.

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