Hi again all.

as you are aware from my other post, i am in the final stages of decorating my new room. i have that looking very nice now, and i just need a few finishing touches before i take the pics, that should happen this weekend hopefully.

but what i wanted to update you all on is my music...

last night i searched the web for a vocal/singing teacher, and came across this site - www.vocaltutor.co.uk - and found a local tutuor (look for Ella in Bristol for more info) and i emailed Ella last night, i spoke of my influences, and i mentioned how i have gone against my famil's opinions and advice to pursue a music career. i told her singing is my life and my one and only love. i said how singing to me is euphoric. i basically told her the truth about how i feel towards music and singing. i explained how i write my own music and have had many bad experiences which i use positively to write powerful songs.

i woke up this morning, and logged into my email account and found an email from her. her first words were, and i quote:

"Wow, you should be an inspiration to all of us, as you should follow your dream cause if you really want to so bad you will eventually get it! You should read I book called, " I can do anything, if only I knew what it was". I know that you know what you want to do, but it really has some great advise about following it through, although your will power sounds strong and has to stay strong as the years unfold, it can be a long process, but it's worth it in the end!...."

the email progressed but spoke of pricing and lesson structure.

that email made me smile so much, as i felt i had taken a huge step towards my goal. and the first sentence of the email made me smile, a smile i havent shaken all day. i am loving it.

i havent replied to her yet, but she gave me a phone number to ring, which i will do tomorrow.

the good thing with Vocal Tutor (as you may know by reading the site) is that there is so much opportunity to get signed by record labels. they hold annual performances where record executives attend etc. this could well be my big break.

i started the year off at such a bad note, i struggled, badly. i had breakdowns and cried loads. but i managed to work through that, and man was it worth it! things are picking up for me now, and i cannot wait to get into the singing, which i will arrange tomorrow.

so keep your fingers crossed for me...this is the beginning of something big for me, it really is. today is the start of my future, a future i have control over and i know i will succeed. all the hard work of depression and darkness is paying off and i am well on the way to fulfilling my destiny - to help others through communicating via music. the dream i have of standing on stage singing my heart out to fans who connect with my music seems that little closer. and all i have done is contacted a vocal coach, but it seems so much more than that, it really does.

simon