mkac, do you really think that your T, knowing you as well as he does, would ever think that of you? No, sorry, I know, it's really easy to believe that they will share our own loathing of ourselves. But hasn't he pretty consistently shown you that he does not share that? Wouldn't it be more reasonable for him to think that you meant "fun" ironically, or that you didn't refer to that particular part of the thread (which is what it was really, since you didn't remember that part)?

I like what I've heard about your T. I trust he will react in a good way and treat what you share with him the way he should.