Dear Angel
I am so sorry ,I understand how devastating you feel,but please do not do any sudden decisions ,people need you,you are very important even if you don't feel like that now.so he left,ok. You don't know what he thinks,maybe he needs time to go over things,maybe not ,but whatever it is it's not worth human / your sacrifice .your life is important ,you are unique,true person will accept you for who you are.you can't hate gourself because as much as have read your post you are one of the kind and objective people always ready to help and we love you.please PM or just chat with us .
No ones betrayal worth life sacrifice .love yourself like God does and He has tremendous amount of love to you which you share with us on daily basis
All the love,patience and hugs